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Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Why Me?

In dealing with anxiety/depression, there have been times when I have thought, "Why me?" It can be scary to not know if you are going to be able to control your emotions at a certain point or wonder why you can't seem to think straight. It can be embarrassing to go through a panic attack or try to explain to someone how you are feeling when you don't understand it fully yourself. It can be hard to feel like you are the only one, or that you are going crazy and there is nothing you can do about it.
I realized the other day, that I think part of my anxiety may be triggered by the fact that I am so passionate about so many things. I love my family and friends, I love my religion, and I love my country. I am sometimes shy, but I am very passionate and opinionated about these things. When I feel out of control or worried someone I love is hurting, it is almost too much for me. When I let myself feel like I am not good enough, it can bring me way down.
I've thought about it, and even though I deal with anxiety and depression, I wouldn't take away my passion for the things I love in order to get rid of my struggle. I would rather have some ups and downs along the way than be an emotional stone. My passion for the things I love make me who I am. As I go through out my day, I try to remember that God knows me and He has a plan for me.
Quite possibly the most patient man in the world...and his crazy wife ;)

8 comments:

  1. You're not crazy goose!!!!! You are amazing!!!!

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  2. You know Chelsea, I am just like you. But God wants us to relax and leave Him in control, to be still in the knowing that He is God. Visiting from the MM party, have a super blessed day!
    Love

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    1. Thank you! I appreciate your wise words!

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  3. Passionate people are definitely prone to anxiety, I do know that. I can be so crazy excited about something one day and the very next feel like a total failure concerning the same thing. But, when we can draw our strength from the Lord, amazing things can happen!

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    1. So true! Thank you, I appreciate your words.

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  4. One day I meditated on the verse, "Perfect love casts out fear." The more I thought on it, the more I realized that if I truly trust in God's love for me, then I have no basis to fear. If something bad happens, then I can trust that he's allowed it for a reason that is for my ultimate good. Beth Moore is famous for saying that everything that comes into our lives is for "our good and His glory." May it be so today! Visiting from Be Not Weary today.

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    1. Thank you Lori! Your words are really touching!

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