Monday, October 15, 2012

Living With a Black Dog: Part 1

I heard about this book from my mom and sister,
"Living With a Black Dog: His Name is Depression." By: Matthew Johnstone.
I had read it a few years ago, but that was before I had many experiences with anxiety/depression myself. When I read it a few years ago, it helped me to understand what my loved ones were going through a little bit better. Now that I live with anxiety/depression myself, the book has become like a security blanket. It reminds me that I am not crazy.
About a week ago, I read through it for the first time in a few years. As I read it, I found my self nodding, completely understanding what the author wrote. It is written with simplicity, accuracy, and genuinely. It is sincere and sweet.
I hope to share with not just this, but also other posts on how I (and you) can identify with the things the author writes in this book.
The author got the idea for this book from Winston Churchill. Churchill used the term "Black dog" to describe his depression. The author of this book uses pictures and words to put Churchill's term to life. It helps you understand yourself and others better.
One of the pages says,

"Doing anything or going anywhere with [the black dog] requires superhuman strength."
I have felt this in my life several times. I remember about a year ago (before Jordan and I were married) calling my mom from the College's parking lot in tears. I just felt like I couldn't go to school anymore. It was too hard. I was convinced I couldn't do it. I couldn't take this big, slobbering, smelly black dog with me to school any more. It was too hard. My mom talked me through it and I made it through that semester, dog and all.
I guess what I want to say today is, the black dog (anxiety/depression) isn't you, it is just something that decides to be a part of your life sometimes. Through time, you can learn how to love life again, even with an ugly black dog.  


  1. I love that book! And I love you!

  2. Ya know I've recently just learned what having an ugly black dog really feels like. I'm a lucky one, I was diagnosed with PMDD just 3 months after it began. I'm already on hormone therapy and I feel a million times better. Thanks so much for stopping by the other night and leaving a sweet comment on my Pumpkin and Chocolate Cheesecake bars. :)

    1. Thanks for stopping by! It's wonderful to hear from you. I'm so glad you have been getting help, it can be a really hard thing! The mummy pizzas were super cute by the way :)

  3. Oops, I totally meant my Pizza Mummy's! LOL ;)

  4. I've had problems with anxiety for years, and it's led me to have issues with depression as well. Maybe I should check out this book.

    1. Thanks for stopping by, I would very highly recommend the book! It is very simple, but extremely helpful!