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Monday, October 8, 2012

Hope from a Dandelion

I've been going through a bit of a rough patch with my anxiety lately. It's hard. I don't like to go places by myself. I made Jordan come with me to Wal-Mart the other day, something I would have normally quickly run and done by myself. Driving alone to school for 25 minutes can be hard. My mind tends to play tricks on me when I am alone.
Even in a rough patch, life is still good. I was feeling pretty low last Friday, but then I got to go and visit my 3-year-old niece. She is the cutest thing you have ever seen. We had a "tea party" (made complete with the clinking of our pink plastic princess cups), ate Rolo's, danced to "Beauty and the Beast," and played outside. During our tea party when her cheeks were full of water, when she was standing on the counter and asked if I wanted another Rolo, when we were dancing and she asked me to spin her around, and when she picked a yellow dandelion and said it was for me...I forgot about my anxiety...My fears were gone, taken over by how much I love that little girl. Hope fills me when I think of this. Anxiety is strong, but there are so many things that are stronger. 
I called Jordan while my niece and I were playing. He could hear the laughter in my voice and commented on how I feel better after I have been with her. It's hard not to feel great after spending just a little time with her sweet spirit. 



8 comments:

  1. I love you so much! You are gaining so much wisdom and knowledge from your experiences! You're an amazing woman!

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  2. Your niece is a doll. I appreciate you sharing your trials and good attitude on "I Gotta Try That". Thanks so much.
    Marcie

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    1. Thank you Marcie! I appreciate your visit! I hope you have a great day!

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    2. Breathe deeply, visualize the dandelion, and remember those good times when you feel anxious again. You are doing great!

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    3. Thanks Patricia! I appreciate your words.

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  3. Hi Chelsea, Thank you so much for sharing this sweet post at Changing the World One Blog at a Time. My heart goes out to you & I hope that your soul will be comforted with peace. Your story reminded me of one of my favorite scriptures in John that says "there is no fear in love". It is something I say to myself when I have to speak in church, for instance. {I'm fine with being on TV, but not with speaking in church! Ha ha!} It's great to "meet you"!

    Warmly, Michelle
    Faith, Trust & Pixie Dust

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    1. Thank you Michelle! I appreciate your words.

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