Wednesday, August 29, 2012

How I Know God Likes Country Music

As Jordan (my husband) and I were dating I experienced high levels of anxiety. I don’t really know why, it just happened. I had anxiety about everything. Even though it was rough, it helped Jordan and I get to know each other in a very special way. He would help me through panic attacks (he still does) and he never gave up on me. One day I was on my way to class at the University. For some reason I was completely and totally overwhelmed this day. My mind was cloudy, nothing was making sense, and I thought I was beyond hope. My mind was telling me there was nothing good in the world, and even if there was, I wasn't worthy to be a partaker of it. As I drove to school, I just cried and cried. It was on Highway 89 that the radio began to play one of my two favorite songs, Lady Antebellum’s “Just a Kiss.” My tears of frustration and anger softened as I listened to the words. I was in shock when right after this song, my other favorite song came on the radio, “Crazy Girl” by the Eli Young Band. I was still crying, but they were now tears of gratitude. I took this as God’s way of showing me He loved me. He knew I was having a hard time, but He was still with me. There were one or two other times when I felt hopeless and these songs came on the radio right after another. I don’t know exactly how God works, but I do know he got my country station to play those songs when I needed them. I felt it was God tapping me on the shoulder to say, “I’m still here, I love you.”


  1. Chelsea,
    Thank you for being brave enough to talk about your anxiety - I've been dealing with anxiety and depression myself for many, many years, and you are right, it does help to talk about it. I'm sorry you have to deal with it, it is not fun.

    I was not having a good day today, and then I saw your post on Facebook and decided to check out your blog. You helped me remember what I sometimes forget (and need to be reminded of) on these bad days - thank you!!


    1. Thank you so much Cindy! I would've had no idea you struggled with it! Thanks for your comment, it is so uplifting.